her

CHLISMAS.

2011-12-27T01:07:00.003+08:00

(;
well, number 1, i think its true.
since the smartphone came into mylife, i;ve been using it more often than ever to keep my online life active. HAHA
plus, it doesnt help at all that this faithful com is s-l-o-w.
haha.
took me almost an hr to save one photo frm fb and to log into blogger and blog.
pfft.
but no,im nt giving up blogging(:

its been a really good two months(:
the birthday. the iphone. joyce's wedding. ivan's cousin's wedding. yuping huiting's birthday. roundup. uhm. christmas. and haha
we're gracing into the new year!
can blogger come up with a nice friendly app for me to blog! (:
*to the people who remembered my birthday on the 24thof nov. thankyou all so much(:

i absolutely love christmas.
the joy of giving never fails to remind me that we should all be generous and appreciative! HAHA
what more, towards the people we love (:

neverthless,
there;s work tomorrow. and im sure i'd do a thanksgiving post soon
with many photos i hope. haha

love you all very much
xoxo.

More than a month;

2011-11-29T19:01:00.004+08:00

no i havent lost my voice.
maybe my life just isn't so happening when im at work!
or like i don't even have time to sit down and pen down my thoughts.
hahaha.

end year dramas.
): i think i generally cope with stress well,
i guess i've lost the joy of doing what i do somehow along the road ):
and to the people holding the fort w me,
i really love you girls and lets pray hard in regards to the yr 2012. sigh.

ivan's back to school,
and i pray we'll have the strength to go through the crucial few yrs ahead.
hahaha.
more love, more power! lol

and,
hope i last through the night.
out;

LAZY(:

2011-10-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

curtin's confirmed(:
daddy's gona be back from germany tmr(:
off on sunday(:
and i need more patience to nurse female patients.
pfft.

all grown up already.
sigh.

:D time of my life

2011-09-20T13:49:00.003+08:00

my cui face after work. lol.
@ninafendi: if youre reading this the beehoon and the chicken wings were fantasticccc. heh (:

anyway. happy birthday to miss che. and we're gona drop by cgh w some cake and some loveeee. yay
followed by curtin registration. and pray hard our subsidy's succesful (:

well, i kinda miss blogging
but ive got no idea what to type sometimes.
well, personally, i tink singaporeans(including me)should really learn to relax (:
thankgod my flu's gone.(:

nurses are really, really underpaid. lol
ciao.

sweetheart :3

2011-09-14T16:42:00.002+08:00

4:37am yo dear. i am not sleeping yet
4:42am ya i just saw my fb you sent some maplestory thingy ah. eh no work later meh.
4:42am not starting early. starting at 2pm. so can pei you abit. haha
4:49am oh no wonder lah, hahaha. you pei me very long alr leh dear
4:55am okay lah reaching 3 years already. haha

:) the perks of my night
thankyou sweetheart for always trying your best to accompany me on my shifts whenever you can, though i reply really slowly.
its my bonus and you always will be :)

post-wco (:

2011-09-13T18:45:00.003+08:00

back from wco w new insights :)
but im definitely thankful for the crazy roomates i had tht made the stay all the more memorable (:
sleeping at 4/5am and waking up at 7am everyday is really no joke. lol
do it while youre young (: hoho

we've gota let our mind lord over our hearts sometimes.

and on a sidenote, i'm really thankful for p and ivan :)
they're really my pillar of support for the past few yrssssssss. so yay :)

and uhm. i really pray i'll have a good shift tonight,
D: pray my callbells will be answered.
otherwise, no callbells at all pls. sigh.

superlooking forward to thursday and sunday;

one by one.

2011-08-20T13:03:00.003+08:00

sucks to keep thinking i'll get marked down cause of my mcs.
but i really couldnt work):
zzz. fever. flu. sorethroat. cough.
i have half the mind to i/v myself, cause i'm quite sure its due to dehydration and sleep-deprivity secondary to post night. zzz.
and im actually on oral antibiotics.
boss should have some empathy eh.
mcs are our entitlement.
plus, we dont geng.

so i'll be up and running by monday.

another bad news,
why do they keep coming.

sigh.

welcoming september already (;

2011-08-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

(:
night shift again!
and omg, next roster im on mon tues night again. LOL.
except it falls on a hariraya so cheers to tht little bit of extra cash(:

september's seriouslyyyy gona be superrr exciting(:
hoho.
baby's birthday.
mummy's birthday.
WCO in pahang.
just got invited to ivan's friend's wedding
and the brother's birthday!
(: yay yay yay yay yay.

and i really hope th politics will stop,
): sigh.
what if the new boss is worst?
and then who wld be the one suffering? -.-
pfft.
maybe cause i'm still young
but we shld just all stop being typical.
or maybe.typical is the new special.
ahwell.
evrything's in god's hands.
amen.

yu guo tian qing.

2011-08-14T10:09:00.006+08:00

its finally hereee!!
now all im lacking, is an idea for the card!
(:

yayyy.
next month will be superrrr happening! <3

on a side note,
thankgod ivan's appeal was succesful!! (:

breakingdawn.

2011-08-04T11:13:00.003+08:00

永远忘不了。
不可能放得下。
但是，我已经很累了。
能不放下吗？
对不起这一个月内我自私了，硬硬把你留在我身边。
知道你还爱我。
知道这两年不是假的。
真的没想到我所做的那件事会让你那么辛苦。
对不起。

懿停，是时间后悔了吧。
都快来不及了。

还爱你。
真的还爱你。

真的很想完全消失。

know you didn't meant to

2011-08-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

leaving for work in a bit (:
i donknow why, maybe cause when i'm on night shifts i have more time in the day to blog,
work's been pissing everyone off.
we've all gota learn to selfcheck and not start blastin` at everyone we see.
sigh.

cant wait for 6thaug
cant wait for 8thaug
cant wait for dtc camp.
cant wait for payday{again}
cant wait to enrol myself somewhere.
(:

nurses day was a blastttt as usual(:
w food. good company and what not. hoho.
in nursing, we find satisfaction within ourselves within our jobscopes.
\nothing else.

mummy's frying wantons(:
and theres fishball & bahkutteh! hohoho.

speaking of chances,
i'm sorry.
all i know is, who will give me a chance if i give you one?
would you ever know.

out-

same old shit again;

2011-07-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

the month of july's been crazyyyy(:
anyhoo.
i need nafendi to get back to me about schoool. ahemahem*
lol.

life's been about choices,
it always have been.

Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts MORE than angry words.
But until then, live it up; do what makes you happy. If someone doesn’t agree, then fuck them. Pick yourself up and deal when shit happens.Remember that mistakes only make us stronger,

credits to ninafendi's fb note.
loveyou like sugar(:

The perfect two.

2011-07-04T12:59:00.002+08:00

):
emo nemo cause i'm on night shift tonight,
taking the team ,
and hoping and praying my antibiotics list doesnt kill me
soyeah.
plus there's 5 staff,
so..haiya,
dreadful, but ive gota learn.
so yeps.

the pass week's been awesome (:
plus,
happy 2yrs&6months(:
you've been really awesome. this is gona sound cheesy but yes, there were ups and downs but im glad you've been around (:
haha. cheers to stepping = into our uhms; 3rdphase of the realationship,(:
love you like marshmellows (:

daddy's going to work now.
well, i'm gona be off to bed to gear up fr the near future in the next 7hrs.

out.

can we start all over again?

2011-06-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

we're all equal in life and death.
last week God reminded me of the reason to love what i use to love to do.
rather, the reason why i need to love my job.

my ear's really itchy and i don't know why.

in life, ive grown to realise we've got loadsa commitments.
whether we start young, or old.
commitment's a choice. we made that decision and we stick by it. but sometime as humans, we made a decision to commit then we decided we don't want to. so, its not really a commitment afterall, right?
i've learnt the importance of not living for the moment(though i still do)
our mind's more rationale than our hearts.
it will always take 2 hands to clap
there are nmany things we love, though we hate to admit, it is natural to give more of our time to the things/ people we love more.
we've only got 24hours in a day, wherever you are in the world

people come and people go, but i thank God for the people who've left their marks in my life. even my patients;

ive got so many things in my mind,
i don't even know where ta start.
adios.

are you enough for him?

2011-06-07T11:43:00.003+08:00

so this are photos from the not so recent sam's party.
(:
i think there're other photos but they haven't appeared online yet. haha
ive got 10mins to blog before ive gota change &head to work
ive been having three days offs here and there,
but it sucks still cause my girls are having sch holidays and whatttt am i doingggg. LOL.

huili is back from europe w my longchamp! (:
serene is back frm phillipines!
edina is back from hk!
(: norman shld be back in a few weeks,
nette shld be back later this yr(:
hohoho.

june is here.
so fast.
so furious.
(:

timbre's@old sch w th cellll(:

2011-05-24T15:32:00.003+08:00

cell outing @timbre's old school was really nice
sitting beside jonavan was the craziest thing ever. lol.
he and his comments tht resulted in him gng up to sing a duet w pam(:
HAHAHAHA. video can be found on fb, linked up from youtube. LOL. (:

so anyhoo.
the N's are here.
i pray really hard there wouldnt be much sponging today and tmr.
sigh):
i really need to retreat to bed and grab some much-needed rest soon.

&i finally headed down to SIM ytd,
got to speak to ms shree,
managed to getcheap contact lenses from old sch optician @blk5
andddd, got some really good dinner and supper yesterday(:
night shift shall be worth it.
post night spells 3 offs;
bday parties,
dinner w the colleagues in lieu of our anniversary,
&p's graduation (: holla.

so i'm just really looking foward to everything, for now.
(:

ivan's laughter is still stuck in my brain.
lol.stupid.

pink roses;

2011-05-19T23:47:00.005+08:00

first pink roses from the boyfriend! shan't state what they're for (:

ivan officially started work yesterday!
before he started, i was complaining about him not working and now that he's working... hahaha.
when was i ever that sticky,i never realised.

anyhoo.i realllly really need to curb my temper at work.
i need to change my mentality, and stop being so proud.
yeps. thts my resolution for the month at least.
heh.

so almost the whole day was spent at home,
headed out fr lunch had last min koi plans w huiting,
and home for dinner.

every roster, i can't wait to finish the 2 N's on my roster.
night's are reallly tiring.
and if you've got a bad combination, hoho.
the only consolation part? extra ch-ching ch-ching (:

so. daddy asked me re:my further studies and well,
i need to pray and think and get my lazy ass SIM to check stuff out soon.

toodles.

(: planes & stars.

2011-05-06T00:22:00.003+08:00

like almost any other lady in the world, i struggle alot with myself.
but i really wana thank god for the family,friends and boyfriend he's given me to guide me to the right decisions despite the many mistakes i made along the way, &still loving me unconditionally(:

3rdmay was the 1 year mark, when i started off as a fullfledged nurse,
happy one year to all my babies who's been w me from the day we signed our bond in 2007 till today, AND to ninafendi, cheyj, and miss ngliling who started out w me in 36 and are still w me today! (:

my 2 off days have been pretty terrific (:
more parties coming up, cause everyone's gona turn 21 before me.
&i still haven't got an idea what i'm gona wear to sam's birthday party):
&well, i'm very much excited for the days ahead.
hoho(:

ive gota manage my temper,

love, me.

2011-04-20T13:13:00.002+08:00

(:

sick, and i hope night shift doesn't kill me tonight):
God knows,

post-night spells O.R.D (:
quadruple triple yayyyyyy! (:
time flew, time flies and have flown.
april`09 - april`11.

and from gd friday onward, i'm gona work 8days straight):
so i rly pray super hard i need to get well soon.
sigh.

out(:

one of those days./

2011-04-12T13:49:00.002+08:00

v.poh and i slacking at the model campsite's chippewa while waiting for aj's turn. heh

u know tht weird feeling whenever al's ending,
yeah):
finally no more al on alt roster ):
my next leave's in july,but i'm thinking of saving it for next yr.
heh.
anyhoo. the week's been amazing.
(:
huixin's 21st.
sherry's 21st.
hongkong for 5days w the family.
baby got his license.
priyaa's 21st.
bedok 85 on sunday w the boyf driving the boys and the girls taking the taxi bleh.
lunch w lok on monday.
and im on night shift today, (:

&to all my collagues slogging their guts out for jcia, its 2 days down, 1 more to go! (: i'm sure boss would recognize the efforts and all of you will be properly credited (:

the year's been flying really fast.
its almost half the year already.
@#%^&*^%$#
may 3rd will mark my one yr as a fulltime nurse.hoho.

tonight will be a good shift (:
ciao.

random;

2011-03-29T23:43:00.005+08:00

i've decided that there's really nothing much to edit abt my prev post (:
&speaking of which i owe uncle chong an email still

i just attended a chinese wedding 2 days ago with the boyfriend,
2nd wedding in 2weeeks. haha. sigh, isnt it true, whenever you see people say 'i do' , your heart melts and you feel like getting married too!
ahaha. but its life after marriage that no one sees.

lol so i'm heading out w huili tmr,
officially stressed out cause i've got three 21st birthday parties to attend next 2 weeks ):
its funn, but haiyo): with work and all i havent really had much time to think about wht to get.
haha. so lets pray we stick to our objectives tmr. (:
&i'm craving fr haagan daz, or b&j! (:

tangyuan later! nights world (:

2011-03-22T19:44:00.002+08:00

He will deliver the needy who cry out, the afficted who have no one to help.
Psalm 72:12

the falcons have been a tredmendous blessing to my life. (:
God never fails in surprises.

ah,i'm off for work,
i'll edit the post later.(:

pre-jlta. sigh.

2011-03-15T00:43:00.004+08:00

I need to pack my bag tmr.
I need to go back to changi to buy insect repellent & take my black shoes tmr
I need to buy mahjong paper and some markers tmr
I need to go to ivan's place at 730am tmr to find my uniform, and if its not there... commit suicide and die.
I need to try to get ready my lesson for night class

i hope everything' will fall into place tmr. ):
sigh.
eventually, time will pass.

@5:16pm, 15thmarch2011,
its all checked and done.
waiting for daddy, shower change, dinner and omg. i'll be at camp (Y)
hohoho.

(: spirit filled.

2011-02-24T00:56:00.002+08:00

ive recently signed up for twitter after dilys and sam managed to convince me.

its really interesting to see and know that people need all sorts of ways to vent out how they feel and how we need to let our thoughts known. i've just been surfing on fb, twitter, blogs, youtube and what not.. and its the same everywhere. i think about how our parents/grandparents never used to have such luxury of the internet, to let their thoughts known to people at any moment they want. its the need of humanm, that we need to let people hear us, we need people to listen, to care, to tell people our joy snd sorrows such that people of the new era has come(d) up with devices, with social communites online to get people connected to each other constantly. its interesting, and as christians we really should start realising that God is better than whatever portable/ mobile internet/devices we have. He's like- always online, never breaks down, never gives you up, we just gota get ourselves plugged in. no logging in no password needed either.
its cool.

anyway. (: tonight's a nice emo night after a good meet up with huili and jo(:
i'll always have a thing for the past
we keep generating memories(y)

and. my dates with ivan have been pretty interesting the past week(:
from blowing bubbles on the way to the station
to pool and bowling yesterday(:
i use to rmbr being really afraid of trying new stuff with him , cause it gets pretty embarrassing
haha. but i think i've learnt through the year(s)
(: thankfully. haha.

how do you heal a heart that can't feel its broken?

hallelujah!

2011-02-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

i've known dilys for slightly over a decade, and when uve known a person for thaaaat longgg, the conversations you have are naturally very different. (: and i thankGod for placing people like that in my life, its like, you never have to pretend and its always easier to speak your mind (:

my al is officially over, then again.my next week of al is not too far away, (: and it spells j-l-t-a! woohoo. i'll be back in 36 on monday, (:
there's always pros and cons when you go back after a break, haha.
anyway i really wana thank god for nudging me to take the train to victory instead of cabbing. and along the way to victory, god sent someone to take up the empty role in ajtc. so yeps, aj is complete! all praise and glory to God, (: definitely god-sent.

and testiomonioes really do give a sorta encouragement and inspiration to people's lives dont they? haha.

im gona wash my face and get some good rest.
service at 2pm tmr,
(: goodnight.

V for valentine. (:

2011-02-15T14:21:00.003+08:00

i donknow why blogger doesnt allow me to blog in sequence.
haiya nvm lah(:
let em speak for itself.
heh.
aljunied market lunch.
goldclass movie.
shop for wallets.
suki buffet for dinner.
(:
and ive nvr thought that i'd spent valentine's day w the same person 3 yrs consecutively.
(: love you baby.

anyway.im damn hungry now
and thankgod for a brother who offers to buy me food cause his jiejie's hungry! (:
yay(:

valentine's (:

2011-02-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

hehe, i love seeing him play with his small cousins (:

cny party at his place was fun.
and i still havent learn how to play mahjong lol, though staring at games after games. lol

&i had to go to a patient's house twice to get the caregiver's tag and to return her medication to her on seperate occasion.i thankgod she stays a 10minute walk away from my place.hoho.

dear, tmr how ah
tmr, i'm falling in love with you.
my valentine's day officially starts now. yay.
what a fabulous way to start my annual leave (:
cheers kiddos.

b.reak pls. ):

2011-02-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

you seee. that's me, trying very hard-.-

i only had one meal yesterday! i realise.
lol.
crazy mrning yesterday. i hope i didnt forget anything):
times like this, i dream and breathe work.
pfft.
and i got home at 8pm and slept till 10am! hohoho(;
a super awesome 14hrs of sleep(:
its been quite a while since i actually have time to sleep.
ultra deprive.

can't wait for next week!
al can only ever smell tht sweet
(Y)

booze the night away.

2011-01-28T00:11:00.004+08:00

youmayormaynotbereadingthis.
imsorryforgivingyousomuchunnecessarystress.
imnotasgoodcomparedtouhmstheothertwo.
notthatilookdownonmyselfnoidont.
maybeishouldjusttakeastepbackandwellmaybethatswhyyoufeelcontrolled.
maybeimnotlovingyouright.
maybeivejustbeentoouptight.
maybeihaventbeentryingenough.
noidontwanaknowthatmaybejustmaybe;
~~thatidontloveyouatallidontwanaknowthat.~~
butimsureeverthingswithinmyself.
imhavingacrazybattlewithinmyself.
andifeelmyselflosingfloatingcrying;heartbreaking.
evenifirealiseidontloveyoui'llmakesureicomebacktoloveyou.
ifsomebody'lljustteachme.
butthenagainiknowimnotteachable.
sohow.helplesslyhopeless?orisittheotherwayround.
idonknow.

ikeepthinkingofleavingbutitsgonabestupid

causenomatterhowmeaniamorivebeenyouvenevertoldmetoleavesoitsdumb

youlovemethatswhyyourenotchasingmeawayright?

ithinkimpartiallyschizo.

ithinkwhenigrowoldimgonahavesomecrazypsycoproblem

iliveintwoworlds.ileadtwolives.iseemtohavetwopersonalities.

ihavethismajormajormajoregoproblemthatdoesntallowmetoonethousandandonethings.

somanyfullstops.somanyquestionmarks.
youseeallthesealphabets.itsexactlywhattheylooklikeinmybrain.
idontwantletgoiwanastepintothepotentialfutureisee

ijustwanagoonandonandon.boozethenightawayyay.
sighwhydoifeelthisway.
goodnight.

fabulous sunday(:

2011-01-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

the week's been super super amazing.
the 3 days off.
saturday team 3.
sunday team 2.
hollapokka (:
i think im back to team 1 tmr. but hey. hahahhaa.
i shld be fully charged alr right, shld be ):
anyhoo.
work. ajisen. intercontinental hotel's toilet (hohoho). wallet shop. bugis street.
dinner w th cmdrs on saturday was pretty fruitful as well(:

f o c u s
sigh

pitstops.

2011-01-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

8yrs and counting (:
♥♥

when you grow older and your social circle becomes smaller, there'll always be that handful of friends you know that'll stick with you your entire life (:
but when you think of the ones you've lost; be glad that at least they've been part of your life.

the heartsqueeze feeling that comes with tons of nostalgia.
sigh):

i have 3days off this week,
and boy am i glad.
the ward's been topsy turvy everywhere. &i'm praying super hard when i go back ta work, thing's wld more or less be stabilized. heh.
=/

feb's coming!
(:

{&isecretlyworryaboutwhat'sgonahappenafterord,sigh}

first post of 2011 (:

2011-01-12T01:12:00.005+08:00

i miss doing crazy stupid random things w the bestest friend God has given me (:
i think toh's gona kill me for posting this picture, but i really really like it.
we don't look stupid in it okay):
i wnaa be 21 and still crazy(:

and i'll always be missing the soldier (:

i worked on new yr's eve and on new yr's!
so i havent really felt the difference until like 2 days ago? hahaha. everyone's gona be turning the big two-one this yr,and soon everyone will be getting married. falala. ive not much of a new yr's resolution.
but maybe just one bigggggg secret resolution. heh.

looking back,
two thousand and ten has been pretty amazing. just like 2009 was.
just tht stepping into the working world a.k.a adulthood was pretty frightening per say. but i think iv'e gotten use to it, *slightly.
though ive still got my complaints. hahaha. but whts life without complaints.
aha. the beauty of imperfection.
rantrantrant and u get over it (Y)
adulthood has taught me things the hardway and i'll always be grateful to god for the inner strength and peace within(:
in life, u lose some u gain some.
2010 was the start of life-learning for me at least.
cheers to the end of 2010 and the start of 2011. (:
lets see wht 2011 brings us.
(:

hi. i'm 21 this yr.
and.
i wana go back to school.

goodnight,

hoottoot.

2010-12-28T01:02:00.004+08:00

what happens in the ward, stays there.
(:
~~some people just need to know that~~

december's been superduper funpacked (:
im slowly mending back my social circle work has shot a hole in.
so. so. so.
it helps alot tht the boyf's on leave,
and that.hahahahaha, my roster's nt that bad (:
lets look forward to a new yr together~
yay.
and i really wana have holland v xlb w everybody!

BIG BABY LOW(: says (11:11 PM):
*dear it's 11.11 i miss you! haha

(:

deFOCUS.

2010-12-22T00:43:00.003+08:00

havent had a chalet for a longlonglong time.
&its the festive season! (:
cant' wait for the coming weekends.
well i thankgod for my awesome roster these 2 weeks (:

and,
i need to be more focus.
pray.

and im super happy ive been spending time w some of the most impt pple in my life.
plus, im ultra happy nette is back,
and and and.
haiya. i dont mind wrking as long as ive got all of you w me (:
love ya'll
nights.

hohoho.

2010-12-01T11:01:00.003+08:00

nvr knew 11 days cld pass so fast heh(:
thankyou dear for your company the whole week,
and especially for making me feel ultra special on mount faber on my v special day!(:
and i wana thank everyone who wished me on 241110 (:
thankyou all.
this yr it'd be too tough to name names.
but yes, allof you(:
and hahahaa. i think its the first time my fb reached a total of 97notifications.
work later.
love ya`ll.

p/s :i need to go get my i/c and driving license replaced really soon):

nov`2010.

2010-11-20T13:44:00.002+08:00

&im on to my 2nd lap of al (:
hahaha.
i have a strong feeling i needta work my guts out in dec):
neverthless,i hope everything in the ward gets better,
sigh):
so manymany incidentreports. pfft.

lost my voice.
sleepover tnight.
al al al al (:
singapore is home
well, i shall make a promise to myself im gona fly outa singapore next yr though(:
novemebr's a good month,
and i pray december'll be even better.

gear up,
cause the new yr's {will be}here.
cheers (:

NOVZOOMBER.

2010-11-13T23:07:00.002+08:00

thankyou love(:
youre the element of suprise (:
appearing at ze doorstep was good enough,
heh. love you silly.

team1 female cm.
god continue to be with me,
cause i can do all things through christ who strengthens me (:
im so in neeeeed of sleep
conrad p and sam are watching a movie w/o me! ):
ldrs council tmr.
(:

end of first AL.

2010-11-09T10:44:00.002+08:00

ive finally ended my al,
hearing things tht're happeneing at work freaks me out):
change of workflow.
no more pinkcharts {i dont even know how to e-chart}
and like gosh, god help me.
):
shall attempt to reach earlier and to catchup w what i can.
cheers.
off on fri
(:

happy to the beat!

2010-11-04T16:32:00.002+08:00

credited to rei(:

the week's been freakiinnnng awesome.
zoo on mon w ze boyfriend.
lunch w vivien and dinner w the girlies on tues.
wed was ar meeting
lunch w ken on thurs
cgt in jb frm fri to sat
sunday off.
monday off.
(: (:

and im super super excited to stay over at sam's place later on tnight (:
and omg,i still can't believe ken's 18 and enlisting soon! bleh.

uhms.
and i miss mabelgoh and angheily badly ):

by inflating the importance of feelings, we neglect the importance of putting love into action

bye,world.

after a longwhile.

2010-10-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

lies.
blemishes.
guilt.
purity.
love.
relationships.
friendships.
family.
facades.
smiles.
people.

just smile and work.
well, things havent been too happening lately.
and i always go into a deep reflective mode after ar meetings(:
and im looking forward to the weekends!
cheers.

l.eye.eff.e

2010-10-05T20:06:00.003+08:00

i was browsing through my sec4 grad book.
i took out my ngeeann yr 2 textbook to read up on skills i'm not too sure of.
i spent the whole day home.
lunch w fam.
dinner w fam.
watching 2012 w ivan ytd was awesome.
dinner w nina at ljs followed by icecream at tom's palette was a beautiful ending for a not so blue monday.
i still want to drink clam chowder soup.
i still wonder how i'm going to finish my digestive biscuits before the expiry date.
i still think this 2 days offs are abit wasted, having to work 6days frm tmr onward.
im happy i'm meeting nicholasgohanran tmr.
i'm going to die for testyourlimits tmr.
ivan's booking in today.
i need to stop working afternoon shifts.
1more month to confirmation.
2more months to the 20th.
3more months to the new yr.
i love my life.
pfft.

lingering, and always will be.

2010-09-27T01:31:00.004+08:00

its exactly how things look like in my mind right now. heh
the not so long ago friendship(s)
frm the seeing everyday, to not at all,
even in the same hospital, nobody sees anybody. hahaha
its insane,
the one huge reason why i wana study in sim 's cause of its familiarity.
some things in life, no matter hw bad things turn out, you'd just nvr forget.
friendships were never so hard to deal with <3

i love swedish meatballs

i love walking around ikea and courts

i love touching every computer screen in attempt to find a touch screen monitor

i love walking up and down refilling my paper cup w coke

i love ivan the biggest kingkong on earth

and i shall learn to love afternoon shifts.

gdnight, world.

the upssssssss.

2010-09-21T00:30:00.003+08:00

people i've known my entire life (:

i dont like the feeling of taking care of patients totally frm a diff team when i come back from off ):
or like when i come back frm a looong off, and i feel like ive lost touch.
or like i dontknow whats going on,
makes me feel lousy):
hahaha.

ive got peace like a river,
god, this is the third dimension
now what?

reminsce.

2010-09-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

i miss huiting yuping amanda huixin hanrong dexing
i miss vivian weeling nickgoh
i miss tananrong ken joel
i miss the gmboys
i miss vivien sherry serene
i miss celine shuxin cheryl sherie nozomi nataline
i miss farrah evangelin rebekah eunice daniel
i miss huili mabel shannen huda priyaa melisa
i miss lynette
i miss dilys norman joshua
i miss pearlene and sam
i miss jlta
i miss ngeeann days
i miss working in 48
i miss bethel
i miss lowjiahua

'many people say that they can't live without their love, sometimes they forget that before they met love, they have friends and lived'
quoteunquote frm xingjuan's fb.

sigh how true.
adios.

probation probation.

2010-09-07T11:05:00.002+08:00

i was looking through some photos on fb and i guess i really do miss bethel alot alot alot ):
the audi the rooms and what not ): sigh.
15more mnths to go.

ahwells,
off to work in another half an hr.
whats new?
except i shouldnt be getting too uptight over my checklistszxzxz.
there's still time el, there's still time.
hahaha.
(pray hard i'm not in denial) pfft.

so,
happy birthday to mummy dearest (:

every blogpost for the past 2 months has a bday dedication to somebody. lol

happy 20th babyboy (:

2010-09-04T22:51:00.002+08:00

i ultimately hate it when my internet lags on me, and my com ends up like peanut butter jam. argh.

so, happy 20th on the 1st of september to the funny, lazy, grumpy, excited, happy, kuku, glutton boyfriend of mine(:
i love you many like crispy egg tarts(:

sometimes, the better lessons in life are learnt only when we're thrown in sucha harsh negative situation, and we start wondering and getting upset over why people do that when theyre suppose to love us- its only when we see things as a learning opportunity, we realise the art of love.

love, itself is an art.

thankyou baby for my koi! (:

2010-08-21T00:25:00.002+08:00

hahaha, look at my super cui face
i think i almost fainted on that day. lol

ive been appreciating my off days alot more,
sleeping in. and trying to catch up with as much sleep as possible (:
life ain't that bad i guess.
thankgod for peace, for guidance, for encouragment, for support, for love and strength for each new day.
el shld really stop having such unnecessary paronia, or i'll really be going insane soon. lol
and its only 3months into work.
get use to this,
get use to this.

sigh,
night shift again tmr.
farewell,
then again- happybirthday kenlokjingwen.
farewell and goodnight.(:

the reminder.

2010-08-10T23:03:00.003+08:00

love is an act of endless forgiveness,
a tender look which becomes a habit.

happy birthday to tananrong and my dearest miss ang (:

the 2night shifts have been crazily tired ):

work's been prety much exciting
i still wana learn. im sure there're still stuffs i don'know
other than that, juuuust practice.

i'm sure if things were based on mere feelings, we wouldn't be what we are today,
yawns.
ily.

stitch.

2010-08-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

so damn* jaded

maybe i've never gotten over it all along
maybe cause you never understood why

and to ze best friend
i don't really know if i overreacted. i can't really tell. not even now.
all i know is, ive gota seperate the two events,
just like how theyre a year apart.
sorry yea.

&elhannah officially doesn't like offs on tuesdays and wednesdays
and she isn't looking forward to her first nightshift in 36 on sunday,
{freaks me out}
):

and i'm superthankful to my 4 beautiful ladies for the awesome meetup today!(:
you ladies are like my uhmuhmuhm,
happy pills (:

its 2am.

s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d officially ):

2010-07-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

elhannah ho is ridiculously stressed up (again)
i just got use to the junior routine, and now its for the real thing):
its gona be another few days of i donknow what. or maybe weeks. or maybe months to function properly.
and its not helping that my super awesome preceptor's on annual leave):
roar.
god save me,
god make a way, please.
and im so tempermental recently,
what's wrong w me ):

sighs.
i'll let worry tmr worry for itself.
im tired.
4 sad faces in a post ):
yawns.

came and went

2010-07-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

uhms
i miss happier times.

have i mentioned tired?

2010-07-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

life's been everywhere.
i think the stress's just gona continue levelup-ing till probabtion's over.
ivam venepuncture cannulation checklist completed , submitted
started shift work

uhms.
ive just gota learn and absorb asmuch as i can
and i hve my notes like all over the place on rough paper(s)
and i need to deesperately transfer them to a proper notebook,
so elhannah should really stop procastinating (:

all i wanted was just tht little bit of time,
thanks for coming down ytd;
and thanks for understanding and the slightest effort you make just means truckloads to me.
thank. you.

more shopping on sat(:
cheers.

friendships come and go,
u know whts the funny part?
i dont even know why i lost you.
i dont even know whom i lost you to.
or rather,
have i lost you?
heh

quotes. and l o v e (:

2010-07-05T00:38:00.003+08:00

"take a good look at God's wonders- they'll take your breath away
Psalms 66:5 "

the week's beeen thumbs up(:
thank god for giving me 2 successful cannulations to complete my requirement on sat! though it was just a mere halfday on a weekend (:
so yay.

i like knight and day
cause i like tomcruise and cameron diaz
and i like the person who' watched it w me :p

I'm not sure the best way to say this
But I can't pretend to love you,
i know i can never pretend i dont love you.

每滴眼泪说出心碎的一句话。

sigh.

2010-06-28T22:28:00.001+08:00

Elhannah Ho is afraid of losing her best friend;
):
i'm sad, very sad.

thank. you.

2010-06-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

♥ Elhannah. says (10:23 PM):
*i love you.
ivan says (10:24 PM):
*tough love
*but i love you too

the sweetest,
most understanding boyfriend any girl can ask for
any girl

ironlady.

2010-06-17T22:24:00.004+08:00

the past weeks' been crazy
and i really thank god for the angelic support he's provided me with (:
thanks for the boyfriend who absorbs my tantrums, prays for me, and being super duper understanding,
thanks for auntylilian who spoke to me about how she handles her hectic work life and how she balances it out with God, and yes god nvr shortchanges anyone(; thank you for prayer too
and thank you p for being well, my lifetime opportunity (:

its sad i cant make it for churchcamp,
when everyone else is.
but its okay.

and those you overseas, or going to be over the causeway,
i pray u all be safe.
miss me.. and... buy something back for me!
(:

waking up at 530am everyday's not too bad a thing sometimes.
(:

yay.im excited.
its friday tmr (:

lowjiahua(:

2010-06-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

i know ive been pretty cranky,
especially today cause ive got some screwed up throat and flu):
but i was so happy you came down todayyyyy(:
so one million and one thankyou(s)
thanks for always supporting,
always listening,
always offering help,
always trying your best,
and always loving me (:

and yes,
you're my best,
always will be.

pictures of you.

2010-06-06T11:12:00.003+08:00

coming week(s):
Mondays - Fridays :8 - 430pm
Saturdays: 8 - 1230pm

so ive officially got almost* no life and uh,
no time to think too much & get upset too.
heh.
likes(Y)

i just need to make this discomfort my own comfort zone.
more logbooks / tests/ checklists to complete within the next 3 months
sigh.

there're just some things i don't wana get use to,
after a while, maybe its 'acceptance' thats what people say,
but no.
there're just some things i don't wana get use to.
~~you're my very own bad romance.~~

goodbye ngeeann(:

2010-05-31T23:02:00.003+08:00

ze last shots in NP together (at least)

we all met at the finishing line!
and to think we were still struggling w fyp(s) , prcp and what not
thumbs up to np graduands.yay(:

i always wonder.
17-20yrs's just a mere 3 yrs,
but its these yrs that change lives the most.
colleagues are just.
well abit different from the typical schoolmate/classmate thingy
wink.

i havent cried so much as far as i cld rmbr
i woke up w puffy eyes this morning with my vision reduced to half,
how stupid's that-_- everyone cld tell
bleh.
):
i hate the heart-squeeze-warm-fuzzy-tears-accumulating feeling.

adios.
cheers,

t i r ed

2010-05-27T22:58:00.002+08:00

drama d r a m a
hahahaha.
im thanking the heavens im not part of it,
so i can still provide ears shoulders and support heh

work's been mundane
grad was awesome, ~~and i miss school so freaking much~~
and im so happy its only a 3 day wrk week (:
cheers to vesak cum family day tmr
ting(:

timeoutday2. i keep thinking to myself i'm okay

2010-05-18T21:37:00.006+08:00

im going to sleep by 10, seriously.
im soooooooooooo tired, its not even funny
iv antibiotics stressed me out):
i feel ultimately lost
im just thankful its over
this is the most dreadful day of the week(:
the most dreadful week as well, ~~&imfacingitalonewithoutyou~~
maybeurethereasonwhyijustwanaburymyselfinthepillows
when pretense becomes real

timeout.day one.

2010-05-17T21:59:00.003+08:00

yay(:

countdown to 070610.

2010-05-12T18:48:00.005+08:00

finally wed is over,
well, at least the most dreadful part about stepping first time in the ward as a staff nurse is over-to be abit more precise.
(:
iv canulation test tmr.
argh.
another 4 more hrs in the ward tmr.
2more days to saturday. *thumbs up

ive decided that to coundown to the end of probation would be the best.
iv cannulation + clinical assesments
venepuncture + clinical assesments
multicultural proj
iv dilution mcq test
new staff checklist to complete.

so yeah.
the learning doesnt end.
the testing doesnt end.
omg.
and to think orientaton's supposedly the easiest phase
i can't wait to function proper.
tired ;
t-i-r-e-d.

when you sense familarity in your environment your hair stands and you can't help but turn and look around. {eyes full of hope}

boyfriend day.

2010-05-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

and i wish to smile like this everyday
the weekends came and soon its gona be gone
its early early sunday morning yawns
sucks that i cant stay up anymore lol
can i just say again that 830-6pm everyday mon-friday is crazy
zzzz

eunos for some alteration
chickenchop noodle
sourplum juice from my fav stall
sleep
fb
pastamania
yoguru
with only ze best<3

and p, you have officially one month to convince me thanks.
(:

and ive got no plans tmr after 530pm.hmm

3rd day.

2010-05-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

timbre's w p last thursday was freakking awesome
and we didn't have to foot the bill!
double awesome (:
and like we ended up at kembangan munching on chio cornetto ice-cream
lalala.

these 3days seemed so long already,
ive been having long days rather
830-6pm mon-fri , for the entire month
venepuncture pract/theory test(s) ,
cultural presentations and omg donknow what
i'm just scared. new environment new getting use to,
meeting expectations);
and bla.i've decided to let tmr worry fr itself,
gets alil too tiring after a while

i officially denounce myself no life
and i miss ngeeann. super duper alot
well,
payday's coming
(:

the bestest. (i think ive used this before)

2010-04-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

i demanded for a wish @12midnight,
i got it 24mins late
they turned into 24 roses in a bouqet the next day(:

long day ahead.
marks the official start of the last week as a cute student i am.
im blogging in a funny language i think.
medical checkup with hajarah later at 9, bedok
lunch w p to pass time
finally meeting kukuvanessa cityhall@3pm.
cheers.

period's pissing me off.
i think i ought to be left alone for awhile.
lol. before i start a fight with anybody.

~~now when i think about how i was attached for the wrong reasons, i blame myself cause ive got no need for any experience of any sort~~
cause,
you're you. you're brand new.
ily.

ngee ann to cgh.

2010-04-21T19:23:00.003+08:00

i had a super crazy tiring long day today.
briefing @9am, tampines plaza
mrt' to clementi
bus' to ngee ann
bus` to bishan
mrt` to toapayoh
bus` to nkf building

well, basically. school didnt know i was sponsored for these 3yrs and didnt allow hr to have my transcripts. so i went down ta ngeeann to take one precious piece of paper.
and nkf buildng (snb) to get my license.
so yay. all done in a day.

i hate feeling grown up.
i hate having to be like an adult.
i came outa ngee ann pushing the slightest bit of nostalgia down my throat.
i don't wana reminsce. not now.
not when im trying to accept tht in a week's time i'm gona be wrking full-time w a basic salary and all that i don't know what.
so yeah.
cheers.

jsc`10 outing pictures.

2010-04-19T15:09:00.005+08:00

(:
the pictures form jsc outing 2weeks ago (:
thankgod for the super warm sun that had me hiding beneath the bbq pit we borrowed to have our picnic.
thankgod for the cooling-enough weather for us to cycle
thankgod for the heavy rain that poured once the last person came in to return his skates
so yeps.
we ended off jsc style using makeshift ponchos w trash/recycling bags.
*thumbs up.

so i blanked out the whole of today to make sure i stay home and study for bcls tmr):
which is obvly not working for the moment.
but i believe it will eventually.

yawns.
830am tmr cgh. which means 630 i've gota be up.
finally down to the last 2 weeks.
omg, i doubt i'd ever be ready.pfft.

so yeah.
byebye ngeeannpoly.
hello changi.
hello to the yr i turn 20.

and yay. this is ze 1000th post.
mwah.

:D

2010-04-15T23:41:00.003+08:00

well honestly, im just waiting for time to pass so i can serve my cafewrld food
heh(:
nono, im not hopeless.

just had another awesome tzechar dinner
and headed over to vivien's house to pass her ze shoes (:

well. ive just been home cause the sleep last night was well pretty much disturbed by some chaojiqudi superloved drunk friend of mine. kudos.
disclaimer: ahem.i know youre still reading this and youre still invited to call me anytime and that i still love you alot(: (: (:

so tmr will be a fantastic day i presumed with low taking the day off (:
and we'll see how cell dinner goes. yay.

byebyebethel.

2010-04-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

heh.i love the zone, alot.
and well,
bethel's gone.
i think i'll only feel it when the ground's flattened infront of my eyes.
ive been arnd bethel for a good 15yrs i think.
haha.
thankgod ze boyfriend stays around church so i still get to eat nice cheap food from aljunied hawker *double thumbs up.

so there u go.
2more weeks to go baby.
2 more.

DND`2010,

2010-04-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

dancefloor(:

luqman.

ze five.

one of my fav (:
mai. li. el. bhav. priyaa. huda. fids. mel.

miss shree(:

jason (:

hello world.
those above a.k.a the superlagg`ed d&d photos.
maaan,i miss school. alot):
can't wait fr may26.

and i realise.
ive got minutes of the meeting on sunday to type out.

well,
ive just been home the entire day.
met bhav ytd fr a short while and i made her scout fr bday cakes w me (:

and.
im craving fr some shakerfries. dang.

tired ttm.

2010-04-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

i just got back not too long ago.
and i was in church since 930am.

♥ Elhannah.says (11:29 PM):
*omg
*im damn tired
pearlene says (11:31 PM):
*hhaha me too lol.
*rr drains u haha

yawns.
i think i'm gona fall asleep on my keyboard anytime soon.

long day ahead tmr.
again.

ting (:

2010-03-30T16:07:00.003+08:00

jsc alumni!
this is a.k.a my favouritest picture from jlta(:
10 out of 16 of us were serving (:
freaking awesome.
jsc spells the most fruitful training camp i ever had.
and legendary known as the toughest camp in jlta.
so kudos to jsc`08 graduates

my life has been pretty awesome the past week.
ms ang flew off on the 24th.
dinner w vien at bedok85 on the 25th.
met up w ken fr dinner just before cell on the 26th.
cmdr wengkang and sylvia's wedding on the 27th(:
i absolutely adore church weddings. sigh
church on the 28th.
dinner w aaron just yesterday.
(: (: x3001

so uhm. ive just been rotting alot at home,
on the com most of the time(well, almost the entire day.almost)
and uh.
i think i just devolved into a useless jelly bean.

but anyway.
tmr shall be a fannnnntastiiiic day cause im finally meeting yuping and co.

ciao.

FREE(:

2010-03-23T20:30:00.003+08:00

dang.
everyone's offline on mylist.
stupid msn.

anyway. back from camp,
so i'm all pretty much energized and charged up.
atc broke down walls and barriers between the girls and i,
(: that i really have to thankgod.

so buffeting w jo and huili yesterday was pretty awesome,
i always find myself super full and dont feel like ive eaten anything at all during buffets ): am i the only one? lol.
windowshopping,
followed by some htht accompanied by the super super fantastic chocolate fondue at haagen dasz.
while stupid huili's off to newzealand tmr ):

so ive just been home once in a while,
and.
im excited for dinner on thursday. (:

addiction):

2010-03-13T00:58:00.002+08:00

hah. to think the last time i blogged was on the 8th.
to think its saturday already,
hah. okay technically, friday night luh (:

anyhoo.
cutting hair and sushi w p was pretty awesome(:
so my fringe's really short now
and sushi buffet-ing was just whaaaaack,
suki sushi has the awesomest miso soup ever. lol.
for p to cook her salmon and raw prawns in. hahaha.

so today was just shows and more shows.
company was even better (:

sunday's gona be here.
jlta's gona be here and i don't even feel it
maybe cause this time. so many of the most familiar pple wont be around anymore):

and i cant believe ivan and i made it fr prayer meeting today.
leaving feeling recharge has nvr felt so wonderful(;
god's amazing and ive nevr felt so blessed in a long long while (:
so yay.

okay el,
remeber to call your girls tmr.
mwah.

JUST FOR P(:

2010-03-08T23:54:00.004+08:00

haha.before the day comes to a close.
ive just gota say,
i think p's the one person i can talk to for hours. like generally.
we just ended a 7hr conversation from 430pm- 1130pm on msn.
applause please.
eh p, i think we really deserve a medal(: ting.

so yeah.
i think if i ever am overseas, besides the place, the family, the boyfriend, i'd miss this bestfriend of mine the most(:

like one whole post dedicated to you man.

well. uh
ive just been home.
trying to deal with the ulcer on my lips
anddd have just decided that cafe-worlding makes me hungry
(:
so yeah.

bhavna's twentifirst, and el's insecurities (:

2010-03-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

tada! the blocks that took more than a month to complete. gosh.
happy twentifirstttt my bhvna b(:
i know this wish here's pretty late. but uhhhhhh.
I WASNT LATE IN WISHING YOU K(: (:

(: so the picture whoring starts.
everyone's gotten their new camera and wa-la! (:
kk. everyone being p and anghuili(:

back to late nights and late mornings (:
im gona hafta adjust back to wrking life again,
but then again. lets all cheers to the present.

everyone's just busy sending resumes
waiting for certs
waiting for enlisting
and oh knows what. sigh.

sucks to struggle with insecurities
i've probably been looking at the wrong places
he says he'd do anything to improve the relationship
i should too.
so el, you better do soooooomething

"I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t."

sigh. wht a week already.

2010-03-03T13:17:00.003+08:00

post prcp.
and bhav's early 21st party (:
not forgetting tht nette's back in aussie now. poof.
and the dinner we all had w ps daniel yesterday was just pretty much awesome.
while monday was just spent clearing my cupboard.
i finally decided to throw away all my secondary sch notes blabla.
im so sentimental; seriously. lol.
i cant believe i still have my olevel receipt with me. not forgetting my enrolment package from ngee ann.
utterly hopeless.
but hannah has happily decided since she's turning the big two-zero this yr, might as well ripp everything off the walls and time to pack up her sch work.
sigh.

so yes.
the weather's really hot now.
and my entire family's rly just surviving on nice cold orange juice.
ting(:

grad night tmr.
cheers.

post-prcp baby(:

2010-02-27T12:53:00.002+08:00

post-prcp(:
and we all thought the end of 4mnths wld nvr come
cheers (:

lets party tonight.
(:

last week last week last week! (:

2010-02-22T10:58:00.002+08:00

omggg.
its officially the last week of work.
omg. four months is gona be over so soon so soon. (:
whenever i think about it i feel excited. teehee.

p and i made a random trip to bugis yesterday
after getting wht i needed to get,
lol. it was raining-.-
so we headed to iluma fr some berrylite
the rain stopped after our ice-cream (:
which had us in bugis street cause p needed to get some shoe(s).
and tada. 2 new dresses and 1leggings added to the wardrobe as well.
deprived.
very very very deprived.
bla. i need new bags.

lol.
and nette's leaving on sunday @2030hrs.
i need to rmbr this.

aha.
i cant wait for friday to come

VDAY & CNY.

2010-02-18T22:56:00.006+08:00

sucks that my phone sucks.
pictures taken are like super bad quality );

anyway.

cny's pretty much the same every yr. w the angbaos and oranges (:

but i havent' eaten much goodies this yr i must say, no not dieting. lol.

probably the only difference was at ljh's place w all his awesome relatives, frm all kinds of ages. gosh. not forgetting, cny includes putting me in one of the most stressful moments making me drive uncle's car. fullstop.

(: vday spells love.
i got tricked to wishing him happy valentine's day on 00:00 140210,
to find out he's downstairs and ze gift's at my doorstep already.
a thousand pieced jigsaw, pieced within 5 days in camp for valentines' (:
typing this out is for memory sake only k. hahaha.

followed by my kennyroger's meal on the 16th (:
and lowjiahua, thanks for taking so much effort, sacrificing your sleep in camp just to fix the puzzle for me. (: its our 2nd valentines, and hahahaha. im not bored of you yet don't worry. hahahaha. love you truckloads. (: xoxo.

i'm so happy we're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
(: hahahahhaa.
hajarah was just telling me, she thought the day will nvr come.
hahahaha. how true how true.
(:

and my bro's making milo for me (;
triple yay.

more bai-nian-ing at malaysia tmr, after work in the morning.

sounds tiring already,
hah. nights world,

CNY CUM VDAY.

2010-02-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

its the eve of chinese new year, andddd valentine's day!
(:
what a beautiful way to embrace the end of febuary(:

reunion dinners are always fun.
hours of major feasting, laughter, and teevee. (:

funny cny falls on th same day as valentine's cum sunday
which spells service early in the mrning,
and everybody's gona look super good. (:
lala.im excited.

my loooong awaited weekend's finally here.
and putting my mind off work is definitely good for the soul.

love,
el.

sigh. i rly hve no clue wht youre up to.

2010-02-12T00:18:00.002+08:00

i donknow wht's going on
and i dont like the smile on my face.

and p.
i donknow if i've been neglecting you my dear.
thanks so much fr rmbring the sweets,and for the company at ikea today.
you're like my de-stressor aka stress reliever (;
no matter what, know that i love you so very much still k.
im sorry if i havent been a fantastic friend.

hi world,
im tired.

didnt think about the aftermath.

2010-02-08T11:15:00.003+08:00

tada!
during the week, i thought the coming weekend was cny):
i rly am too excited for the 3 day work next week (:
hahaha.
but ohwells.
starting at 1 on a monday's pretty shiok i must say,
nt forgettng tht i almost died frm exhaustion in team3 on friday.
seriously.

omg. its already going to be mid feb.
and nowww. ive officially got 12 more wrking days to go!
to think im already almost done w prcp.
plus, stupid ms ang has been reminding me of our seafood dinner tonight after wrk. lol. gosh. 3smses to remind me.
my friends are insane.

abi's farewell and 21st birthday was awesome.
(:
its so weird. when abi's back,it'd be july.
plus. dilys's leaving soon too.
by the time they're all back, i think its just in time to celebrate christmas.

i wana fly to maldives.
hm.

after a week.

2010-02-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

im too lazy to save pictures from fb=/

back to the ward was sure refreshing (:
which means i've got less than a month before prcp ends(:
i was looking through my anatomy and physiology textbook which brought back the almost-vivid memory of yr 1 w dr. ronnie in lt 38 i think. lol.

so. ive been pretty busy w work, ministry, movies, dinners and wht not.
more so when cny's here. v'day. and birthday celebrations.
i cant believe daniel and conrad's enlisting this week! tmr and fri infact.
bleh.

2010's gona be faster than ever.
its happenening already.

lol.
imissyou(:

jan`10. ohhhdear.

2010-01-25T20:03:00.002+08:00

(: stupid pig's flying off in a month' time.
anyway.

omg.
im finally down to 4 days of attachment in ot.
so double cheers to that (:
seriously.

well, jan's been pretty slow.
but when i look back, it seems fast all over again.
so yeps. its been 9months since ljh's been in army.
andandand. its been a month into a new yr,
which means chinese new yr's coming,
and tht eqautes the vday as well.
which also means the-most-dreaded-prcp is ending,
grad night,
bhav's partehhhh,
huili happily flying to china and newzealand for one month
and staff nurse by mid yr.

crap.

MATTHEW FIFTEEN ELEVEN

2010-01-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

ot kills me big time):
but i'm happy its wednesday already.
cause friday's near. yay.

im hungry.
and i want some nice horfun and strawberries
i know they don't exactly link but leave me alone la k. haha.

im happy im meeting ms ang fr dinner tmr.
p on thurs.
the rest on fri.
enrolment on sat.
and UH. sam on sunday(:

what goes into a man's mouth does not make him unclean but what comes out of his mouth,that's wht makes him unclean

i know its gona be a tougher road ahead.

Ending of A&E posting (:

2010-01-13T22:37:00.003+08:00

well life at a&e has been pretty intresting i guess.
and i'm finally done compiling the case study(;
took me longer than expected though. ohwell.
thankGod i started early. heh.
and the decision to nap in the afternoon was awesome as well.

2009 was a yr of change.
2010 will be a yr of bigger change.
in which i'm not exactly prepared for.
and i'm sure by dec2010, we'd all look back at january and see how our lives had evolved.
and i think new yr resolutions have to be written on the heart. haha.

2009 was good.
but i wana make 2010 better (quote unquote)

cheers

): k-o

2010-01-05T20:27:00.004+08:00

i miss w48):
yawns.

it is true that people come and go. and as you grow older, friends turn to strangers, sometimes.
some people are just around to go through a phase of life together with you, &disappear.
while there's a handful who'd grow with til we're 50 and still laugh at how stupid you were when you were 17.
and i've gota try,
not to cry when people leave.

one will celebrate the birth of a new day, one will also mourn cause its another day closer to death.

im tired.
):
on a happier note, im super happy i'm gona be meeting p tmr.
andandand i managed to change my shift on monday.

cheers (:

monopoly deallll ):

2010-01-03T00:07:00.002+08:00

okay.i have something to say.
i need to buy monopoly deal.
i know ive been harping on it ever since last night,and have said it at least three times to sam online.
but yess.can smebody get me a stack of monopoly deal pls?
(:

my year started off with rangers meetings.
yesterday was a discussion for whts coming up in the yr ahead,
and wow. commitments are huge can i say.
and dinner was fantastic with everyone who was present.
i think ive slackened and neglected rangers in my 2009 yr.
and now rly leaves no time fr regrets though it really was a wasted year.
like most cmdrs say, u cant just say quit and walk away.
i think to now, ive officially ran out of excuses to escape from my responsibilities
so its time to pick up the torch again and run this race.
and im ever grateful with the support i get from my parents, pearlene, and lowjiahua (:

and im officially excited for the new year.
like sam says it ''it feels more solid this time''

we serve a God who sees from above

i shall try. i promise. to let it go.

2010-01-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

its the new year.
and i havent think abt my resolutions and reflections and wht not.

it hasnt been a gd start.
and i need to make a re-vow not to end up smoking.
and to make a decision not to idle arnd anymore.
and i think i'm toward the process of making a decision to let go of friendships that i use to hold so dear. cause sometimes its just not worth it anymore,
though love really shldn't be wrking that way. but still, ive had enough of tears and heartaches.
certain friendships are still harder to deal.
its the kind where saying iloveyou looks pretty on the outward only.

but rangers meeting was absolutely heartwarming today.
its good to take my mind off stuff.

im still gona embrace the new year
so cheers to 2010.

Friends and family.

2009-12-28T20:26:00.002+08:00

(:
so yay.
christmas spells bbq carnival bhav's party and rangers dinner (:
it was super super duper awesome.

well number 1,
the bbq p wanted was a major success though we uh burnt 2 patches of grass.
thankgod for good weather
and uhhhhh (: the night was amazing.
and obvly my tent for the bags was super cool(:

number 2,
rangers carnival was super cute. with the free flow of cmdr sweehar's food and the cute kiddy games everyone was exited about. haha.

number 3,
bhav's party rly had me running up and down to get gifts, wrapping papeers and what not. ps. i didnt write anybody a card this yr ):
so it was fun w everybody in the house (:
heartwarming to see evryone rlly.

and foom.number 4,
the ER dinner i almost forgot about was super super super awesome. its been long, but i still feel welcome neverthless. thank you people who've been noticing my presence. how can i forget one of the biggest tribe i love to hang out with. hahaha. (:

what more can i ask? (:
counting your blessings starts from the present.

kesha- ticktock. (:

2009-12-23T00:58:00.004+08:00

yay.
my little miss chatterbox was bought by bhavvy and jason to cheer me up when i had my baddest day at work and a goodbye gift for phillipines last yr.
mummy loves it alot and saves it when it falls off the bed every morning.
(:
so yah. u see my cui'ded face and my nice black specs.
it was 1am in the morn mind you.
yawns.

ive been slacking so much these two days its nt even funny.
); i shall rly promise to be hardwrking tmr.
lol.

omg. its the 23rd of dec.
the yr's rlllly ending ):

and im upset that lowjiahua lost his phone ):
boo.
and not to say, i miss pearlene toh cui yu so very much and obviously she doesnt' care ):

i shall look forward to the weekends.
yay. (:

2009-12-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

I am officially upset that i'm not in phillipines w the team):
i was juust thinking abt it and haiya.
shit.
whats the point now.
zz.

anyhoo. it feels nice to be back to church after wht seemed like a long while

yay to the coming weekends.
to bbq
and parties.
(:

2009's been totally awesome.
we'll see whts in for twothousand ten.
hmm.

1st night.

2009-12-16T09:16:00.003+08:00

Lol,
i must say,
night duty's really good fr insomnia,
i think i've never appreciated sleep this much.

today doesn't feel like today.
number 1. i woke up at 12noon ytd.
fell back asleep at 4pm till 630pm,
and then ive been up ever since.
and my shift's frm 9pm-7am.
so you see.

the 10hrs flew past just like that.
and its funny to see the evening pple the day before reporting to work in the morning, lol. do i make any sense. haiya.
anyway, so there i was with huda at 201 munching our macs breakfast all hyper w droopy eyes.
and then here i am, back home. bathed, threw the uniforms into the wash, brushed my teeth, and waiting fr the laundry to be done so i can hang em up.
so yawns.

im so tired i can barely walk straight.

speaking of which,
i havent seen my brother for 2 days.
and i wouldnt be seeing him today either-.-
pfft.

and,
today still doesn't feel like today.
yawns.

shhh. ):

2009-12-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

its obvious its inspirired by bhavna and huda -.-
i really think huda's right,i look like a hantu): (at times) lol.

omg. week 5 down.
and week 6 is officially the most stressful and dreadful week.
see. its mid prcp.
omg.
God please disallow me to burn out):
number 1 ,im wrking 7 days again
number 2, the last 3 ouf of 7days,i'll be on night duty.
cheers.

mummy and daddy's leaving fr church camp tmr.
and uh, how am i suppose to behave when i'm 20?
hm.
time still doesn't keep still.
yawns.

happy 18th to ptcy(:

2009-12-08T20:50:00.005+08:00

i stil haven't seen anyone pass away infront of me
and i realise it scares the shit out of me.
):

so anyway.
i've been missing a few pple quite alot, nick ken norman vivien and aaron fr instance.
poof.
and im officially broke fr the next 2 weeks.
cheers to that.

ahyes. happy 18th p! you officially owe me a blogpost now. andandand i sure hope you enjoyed yourself. winks.thanks for being my super amazing wonderful girlfriend in times of need,and in times of no need. (:
lol.

andand and.
omg. ive worked for a month already. 1/3 prcp down. yay.

i just wana let it go for the night, that would be the best therapy for me

not tht bad. yay.

2009-12-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

i had something sad to blog about.
but haiya.
i forgot everything alr, somehow. (:
haha.

work's not tht bad rlly
time's getting faster and faster.
it actually helps tht we have offs on weekdays.lol.
anddd it also helps when we're nt complaining.
(:

im super looking forward to the weekends,
though i'll be wrking(:
saturday hurry come.
(:

something about you is so addictive

tingalingaling

2009-11-30T13:17:00.004+08:00

whenever i see pictures like this,

i feel the slight nostalgia of the nearest memory.

attachment's not so mundane afterall.

ahaha. happenings in the ward can't rly be typed here yknw.

almost everything's anonymous.

and im stil sad abt the fact i cant be at church for the next two weeks.

yawns.

pray i don't go missing heh.

i like day off(s).

Licensed to Drive (:

2009-11-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

and i thankGod for the bestest gift.